This journey is certainly changing many people, in many ways, myself included. I'm wondering how it will alter my practice as a primary care doctor.
It seems to me that most primary care doctors have a baseline level of concern from which they operate. On one end of the spectrum are the docs who elect to err on the side of caution and do more 'ruling out' of dangerous conditions. On the other are those more laissez-faire docs, who assume health until proven otherwise, the "call me if it's not better in a month" docs. Both approaches have their advantages and disadvantages, and the wise doctor learns to find a flexible middle ground, depending on the condition.
On the whole, I have in the past leaned toward the laissez-faire side. Part of this is my baseline level of concern - my mom was certainly not a rush-the-kid-to-the-doctor type. Part of this is my population - I generally follow a younger, more healthy population.
I'm guessing my leaning is going to change, at least for a while. I'm not sure I'll be capable of NOT ordering a CT on every headache that walks in, especially in my young, healthy kids.
Everything seems more ominous now. Little things, rare things, stuff in the past that I didn't worry at all about. I know that it is in part a reaction to what I am going through. However, this is my first personal serious brush with mortality, and I know that part will not fade.