Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Poignant

I'm feeling really good right now. Not sure why. My grief seems to travel according to it's own schedule. Strangely, it has nothing to do with my mood. It's like I've grown a new emotional capacity called grief, separate, of course linked, but separate from the ones I already had. I'm adjusting to it.

Henry's fifth birthday is next week.

I'm not in serious grieving mode, but every time I think of it I all but burst into tears.

I don't expect it to be a pleasant day. Maybe we'll be able to spend it in happy memories, but I kinda doubt it.

poign ant, adv.
a. Profoundly moving; touching: a poignant memory.
b. Physically painful.
c. Keenly distressing to the mind or feelings.

11 comments:

ArkieRN said...

{{{Hugs}}}

Praying for you!

Anonymous said...

Happy birthday, Henry.

Anonymous said...

Happy birthday, little man.

radioactive girl said...

However you spend the day, know that I will think birthday wishes for your little man and warm thoughts for you. I really wish there was something I could do to make this easier for you.

call me alabama said...

I landed on your blog a few months ago and cried for the couple of hours it took me to read your archives. I check in at least every week because I'm drawn to how graceful you are in your grief.

I have especially enjoyed your posts about what to say to someone who has lost a child and getting the how many kids question for the first time. (There's a poem called We Are Seven that I thought of when I read that post. From a somewhat different perspective, but I think the tenstions are the same). To that end, what's the best (or, at least, what's a decent) thing to say for Henry's birthday? Happy Birthday, precious Henry? I'm so sorry? Want a drink?

I'm from the same state as our surgeon general nominee and equally delighted. Did you see the internet traffic posing the question whether her obesity should be an issue in her nomination?

I'm not a commenter by nature and never really know what to say (this is actually the second time I've posted on a blog before and I've been an avid reader of dozens of them for six or seven years). I really just want you to know you have a regular reader in Alabama who enjoys your blog and hopes the most happiness possible for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

You have a beautiful way of expressing your feelings.

Dr. Smak said...

Alabama, as to your question of what to say, I'm not sure I know.

...tom... said...

...

... as to your question of what to say, I'm not sure I know.

...drolllol...


The human condition would be oh so much more tolerable if more of us had the honesty and courage to simply say that more often.


...tom...
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Dr. Smak said...

tom...are you being droll, or is there some extended net abbreviation I'm unaware of?

...tom... said...

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...smalllol...

It is just an extension of the idea explained here.

So a ...drolllol... is simply a 'droll lol' for a 'normal' poster.


Hey, we all have our idiosyncrasies and oddities.


...tom...
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ArkieRN said...

Happy Birthday, Henry! Hope there are lots of balloons where you are.